Do you have an iPhone? iPad? Another Apple product? If you do, you probably know that you can create photo streams to share with other friends that own Apple products. David and I started a photo stream when Ellie was born to share photos with each other since we were both a little photo crazy in those early days – and too tired to remember to show each other all of them!
Sadly, we haven’t shared photos regularly on there in months – I think the last post I saw was from November . . . until today. This is extra sad because she has changed so much since then and so quickly! In fact, last week she learned to crawl and stand up on her own on the same day. And this past week she got another tooth – her fifth. Thankfully just because we haven’t shared on the photo stream doesn’t mean we haven’t been taking photos of the little one.
Anyway, today David shared 2 photos on our stream and it caused me to look back on the other photos there. *sigh* So much emotion in these images! Especially the ones from that first month or two of her life. How much our worlds changed in such a short amount of time! I very clearly remembered her birth day and I thought of David being overcome with emotion and needing to sit as he watched her being born. I realized that this insatiable love that we have for her started at that moment and has only grown since!
She was so small back then – I know I say it all the time to my clients, but it’s so true – she didn’t fit like that in our arms for very long at all! And we miss it! We will talk about it still, remembering how she just wanted to snuggle with one of us all the time when she was so tiny. So many of the photos were of one of us holding her on our chest as she slept peacefully in our arms. Somewhere along the way that changed, and I’m not sure either of us can pinpoint when, but I do know that it was very early on in her life. She only snuggles like that now when she doesn’t feel well.
I am so thankful that we have these images! But, I also find that I’m sad that we don’t have more – especially ones that aren’t just iPhone photos! I wish we had some of David holding her while she still fit inside his hands. And of me snuggling close, taking all her newness in. And our small, new family together while it was still so fresh. I would hang that sort of image on my wall forever. And with each new addition to the family I’d add a new one beside it.
With the new little life we have coming this fall, I intend to make sure we don’t have any of these regrets again. We will take the time to not only capture him in all his glorious newness, but all of us together – with more than just our iPhones – we’ll use an actual camera.